Thunder storms again..

sigh.. y can't ppl jus peace out... it's all my fault.. put the blame on me.. no 1 else is wrong..

tired & sleepy after taking medicine...

Reading..

Just spent the last 2 hrs reading my past blog entries.. & realised dat i really changed.. from my tone, perception & views..

I can't even recognise myself of 2 yrs ago.. innocence lost? maybe.. experience gained? maybe.. Whatever it is.. there's no turning back of the clock.. What's left are the memories dat triggered after reading the posts..

Changed?

I have been told dat I have changed.. from bad to worse..

My own mum thinks I'm rude..
Deb's mum thinks I'm cold..
Deb thinks I'm different.. she prefers the "old me from sch"..

Never expected such a change in these few yrs.. sch is never the formative yrs.. it's when u step into society when everything changes..

After leaving sch & working... from the bank to now... I have seen alot.. the world is no longer black or white... all is grey.. in this grey world, comes little sparks of colours occasionally.. however colours come & go.. nothin is permanent.. worse is when colours change.. from the red to black..

Time doesn't stop.. even though I wish it does.. life is ticking away.. how many more years will I left to tick?? no body knows.. maybe I will just drop off dead next mth? or the yr after? or the yr after the other yr?